Anew

Starting from this point, the old is gone. everything shall start afresh.

Brand new beginning, brand new me.

New Phrase

Seems like Marriage is a HOT topic this yr.

everyone seems to be getting married..

i lost count to how many times i heard my frens ranting abt their marriage plans, applying for flats, ROM, etc..

Am i really ageing?

why instead of the usual - fashion trends topics or the new guy he/she is dating topic changing to the Big M topic???!!!!??


I'm gg to b very frank.

I'm kinda scare...

scare of the fact im ageing and that i totally cannot imagine myself even getting into marriage..

its somethin i always presume v v far far away..

not until recently tat i realise everyone ard me is getting married..

muz admit its seems kinda fun to be like getting ur v own roof.. but its a lot of committment in return..

not so much of monetary wise but committment to another person.. 'to love till us part'..

gosh.. cannot relate.. : x


tats also probably becos i dun even have one partner to start w ba..

my love department has always been a failing part.. dunno y..

sometimes i did wonder whats keeping me away from 'l.o.v.e'..~ it doesnt seem to like me a lot to let me have it..

Neighbours Nite @ St James

Good Friday..

though its a Public Holiday for most, it isnt the case for me..

but it was only a half day work to clear back log so its kinda alright..

many of my 'long time nv see' cat frens called up to jio me out

sadly, i have to reject one by one.. & explaining y on hell i need to get my ass in the office on a P.H.

on night fall, i head out to hit the club @St James..

it was madness.

our table was overwhelmed by drinks bought by whoever & whoever..

ppl that we didnt know.. haha

guess that the privillage of being girls huh..

it was supposing our 'neighbours nite out'..! consisting of chloe, ru, roy & me!

feli came as well.. of cos the more the merrier!!

when roy came, he was surprise to see the drinks we had on the tables lar.

we went hoping ard before finally settling in D.F - Dragonfly.

we drank a lot n was totally feeling awesome lar..

partly oso becos the 3 of us wasnt feeling v happy w things that are happening in our life..

so we took this chance to vent it all out.

behind all the smiles, laughters, i know we all have our agenda..

we juz want to leave it behind, at least for a while..

~the neighbours gang

~the L.U.C.K.Y Roy...





the babes...




~ w cally..
she is one pretty babe..



lets hit the club soon..


& have a hell lotsa fun tog again..

Leap of Love..

'We make a promise..

we meet every February 29

same time, same place..'

inspired from our feted local author Catherine Lim, this movie is based on the novel 'Leap of Love'.

being a fan of this local writer, i knew it is somethin i have to watch..

&
true enuff, i love it!

i was totally mesmerized by the movie.

simple words cant describe how i feel abt the movie..

maybe it kinda relates back on my life..

love the simple quotes of the movie and realise how movie can really b a reflection of life..

& i really admired how the girl in the movie, played by Wong Li lin, can be so brave..

brave in the world of love..

and despite all odds to eventually found someone she really loves..

this movie can really reassured one that romance is alive.

now i noe.. i need to find not someone i can live with,

but rather someone i cant live without..

:)

got to oso give credits to Li lin,

din noe she can act..

until this movie.. she did a gd job!

'its not in the stars that holds our destiny, but in ourselves'~ William Shakespear.

Contradiction..

life has been pretty diff frm the past..

was browsing thru my past entries and realise i lost that smile i saw on the photos..

guess the main culprit is nt my work, but rather the lifestyle, e ppl i hang out w..

if u ask me, its really been a long time since i felt happy and loved.

i was emtionally stirred when i read an entry of a fren. i felt envy, envy the person that i din even noe, that somehow, there is this man dreaming and yearning so much of her..


at times i felt i hated myself.

as i totally believe that I am solely responsible for the kind of life i live.
so at the end of the day, happy a not, i hav oni myself to blame..


but here's the ironic thing, i have always know what kind of lifestyle i wanna lead..

but i am nv close to that ~do i really need to find new sets of frens in order to achieve that??!!??

i know what is the ideal guy im looking for .. but to only find myself in another heartbreak.

all becos, im nv sticking to what i set.

y am i wasting time, gg on big rounds and nv finding the life i wanna lead..!


i certainly hope i can change things in time to come..